{"id":57,"date":"2006-01-11T02:48:00","date_gmt":"2006-01-11T02:48:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/descansos.org\/blog\/2006\/01\/what-you-resist-persists\/"},"modified":"2006-01-11T02:48:00","modified_gmt":"2006-01-11T02:48:00","slug":"what-you-resist-persists","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/descansos.psolis.com\/blog\/2006\/01\/what-you-resist-persists\/","title":{"rendered":"What you Resist – Persists"},"content":{"rendered":"

No more roadblocks<\/a>! I realized what has been stopping me from completing my Descansos<\/a> project.<\/p>\n

If it wasn’t for an exercise that we did on workday #2, I would have never realized that the sadness that possessed me originated from my days living in the South Bronx. I lived my whole life with the premise that “they will not take me! I will not be the next victim on the side of the road!” I am tough & they will not get me! This was all to hide the fact that I was really a scared little boy facing death & not knowing how to deal with it. This dates back to some of my childhood experiences of living in the war-torn South Bronx of the 70’s. A place where violence, gangs and territory wars were the events of the day. <\/p>\n

I realize now that it was only five years of my life. I also realized that in trying to block out the negative events from my past, I have inadvertently blocked out every good memory as well. <\/p>\n

“What you resist – persists”<\/b><\/em><\/p>\n

So to live my possibility of Self-Expression, I also took on creating a blog of those stories. By telling the stories (read them here)<\/a>, I am now able to release my anger; my fears and my stories of what happened in the past. I am able to live a life where the past is really behind me. A life where I can say:<\/p>\n

I lived in the Bronx. I experience death around me & that is the past. I am no longer fearful & I am not the next victim on the side of the road.<\/em><\/p>\n

So I came to understand that this past kept creeping up on me and I was constantly resisting it. This project has confronted me with my past. Those memories were so well repressed that I did not accept them as stories. I lived them as who I am. I always felt at risk of being the next victim on the side of the road – I was angry, sad, and scared. Now I create my life. I was living my future based on my past, but now my future will be a clean slate. <\/p>\n

I have the freedom to co-create my life with God by my side. I am a Tabula Rasa.<\/a> A free, self-authored mind that will be a creation of my future. <\/p>\n

Therefore, the premise for the Descansos project is for the families to tell their stories. Allow those stories to exist outside of you & not define you. I want the families to see the artist’s expression & see that the story lives over there now. They can now have room to create their lives. They too can have a Tabula Rasa where their life can flourish – never forgetting the past – but realizing that the past cannot define the future.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

No more roadblocks! I realized what has been stopping me from completing my Descansos project. If it wasn’t for an exercise that we did on workday #2, I would have never realized that the sadness that possessed me originated from my days living in the South Bronx. I lived my whole life with the premise […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[20,33],"class_list":["post-57","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-selp","tag-transformation"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/descansos.psolis.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/57","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/descansos.psolis.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/descansos.psolis.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/descansos.psolis.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/descansos.psolis.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=57"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/descansos.psolis.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/57\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/descansos.psolis.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=57"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/descansos.psolis.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=57"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/descansos.psolis.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=57"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}